It is 1:51 in the morning and what am I doing? Something that has not brought me joy in a very long time.
I can't recall the last time I stayed awake to finish a book. My last recall would be what 12-13 years ago.
I don't mean all night study sessions or book reports or reviews. I mean actually wanting to read. Needing to read. The fact that I cannot sleep until I know how it'll end and then dream about the world I just closed the last page to.
And what surprises me a bit more is the fact I started this book at about 11 in the morning. So, 14 hours ago. Again it's 2 in the morning, math is hard. But, I couldn't put it down.
So yesterday, I'm analyzing my demons and finding where I still need work. Today, I worked and read a book. My life is a rollercoaster of emotions and actions. It's exhausting and exhilarating at times.
I'm beginning to wonder just how right my therapist was when she said now that I've been without other stresses and deterants that put a strain on my life what would we see? I've caught glimpses of who I was a couple of times over the last few months and here she is again. A glimpse of who I was and the parts of me I don't ever want to lose again.
So, now that we've married off Benedict, I guess I'll see how Colin finally falls in love with Pen. All before Season 3 comes out.
Tip here - Read the books. They are amazing!!!
