I've been down and out for a while. Even though this year has shown me glimpses of good, I still have days that shake me to the core. Today was one of those days.
Between therapy and just life, I went through a cycle of emotions. There was exhausted, anger, frustration, upset, scared, vulnerable, among others. I can't say that I reached peace when I went to bed, but after the release of so many emotions there was a calm of sorts.
With so much going on and having to rebuild my life from the ground up because 2019 burned everything to the ground, I have to accept the calm when it comes and if that means I knock down a few walls during this rebuilding project with my intense emotions, so be it. I'll be stronger once it's all said and done. I'll be happier when it's all said and done and I want that. I want to shine my brightness on the world again.