January 1, 2023

It's a new year and that means resolutions and changes and being better for like the first week of January and then back to normal because change is hard.  Very, very hard.  Trust me I know this all too well.  

2022 I took a step back from social media, from my blog, basically my life because there was too much change.  The only consistent thing I did was work and visit my mom, my sister, and niece one weekend a month.

I needed 2022 to continue my healing. To continue figuring out where I had gone.  I was lost, confused, mad, frustrated, and a whole array of emotions that set me spiraling some days.  Other days, numb to the world.  And a few happy ones, which I want to see more of as this year progresses.

I want to welcome people back into my life.  I don't want to hide the broken pieces.  The broken pieces have shaped me into who I am.  The broken pieces are not a weakness.  The broken pieces are a badge of honor to living my authentic, beautiful, emotion filled life.  I know I never deserved the broken pieces, but they're here and I have to learn to live with them.

It has taken a while to acknowledge the fact that not everyone will like me.  They may even pretend to care just to abandon me when I'm at my lowest of lows.  But, that is not a reflection of me.  That is a reflection of their own issues and I was just a reminder to them of how they impact the world; just how dark and damaged their own heart is.

I'm here to say welcome back.  Let's see what this year has in store for me.  Join me on all the highs and the lows because life isn't a fairy tale, but it's going to be fun nonetheless.